I’m a writer, i have been since second grade but as I’ve gotten older I’ve realized the thing that is holding me back and that is my fear and my resounding inability to let myself suck. This novel i am working on now is the longest project I’ve ever let myself work on spanning two years and over 40,000 words but now as i sit down to write i find myself thinking about everything, are the characters developed enough? is the world I’ve created realistic enough? Granted i know i need to worry about these things, i need to listen and adapt to criticism but i am letting the fear stop me before i even finish and that is what i need to do above all, finish and allow myself to be proud of what I’ve created. i just don’t know how to do that…i am constantly to afraid the thing i’ve been working on for so long will be a big piece of crap and i set out on this mission to prove to myself that i can finish what i started and to say i wrote a novel, i have always wanted this to be for me and no one else, a personal goal to fulfill, but its turned into so much more and the fear is winning today, i just can’t let it win tomorrow..